I found beauty in my darkness and it brought me solitude,
At first I was full of question marks,
A comic fan might’ve gotten me confused for the riddler,
Patience got thin like twizzlers,
Cut folks off with the SZA’s,
Except the weekend..didn’t bring a Grammy nominee or a partner to share 2 days with,
It brought me to realization that I was alone,
Alone with my demons who were heat seeking and my heart always been the warmest part of me,
I then fell in love,
Yes, in love with my demons,
My demons know how to have fun,
And my angels are just way to strict,
It’s the rebel in me I guess,
Reasons why my parents never could find a leash that could hold me,
I’m no dog,
I’m just full of dark,
Like a bottle of crown,
Let’s raise our glass,
That’s just me talking to me as I stare in the mirror and take a shot,
So many bullet wounds tattooed on my liver
One would think that I would stop,
Well I did slow down,
Moving to the south a bulletproof vest was the smart thing to do,
Cops shoot to kill and these confederate Flags
make nigga feel a bit queasy,
Sneaky movements from those who I thought were close to me,
Now they ghost to me,
I’m alone with my demons did I state that?
I believe in a higher power and I’m not satanic,
Had to state that in case my mom ever got an earful of these stanzas,
I pray momma, I still believe praying is the answer,
Just not to a blue eyed pale skinned man,
And I view churches as a bigger divider of the people than a unifier,
Yet majority probably think I’m in the wrong for that,
Majority of society is stuck in group think,
A lot of y’all just can’t think for yourselves,
It’s evident that I don’t have that problem,
The proof is in the pudding,
The black sheep of my family as much as I’d like the title,
The rare sighting of a bachelors degree takes the name away from me,
The black swan is more of a size 11,
And I walk comfortably knowing that’s who I am or what I am,
Confusion, I put peoples thoughts in disarray when they think they got me figured out,
Dive into my mind you’ll drown in a river of unpredictability,
I find beauty in the darkness I consume,
I learn more from my sad times than I do from my happiest of moments,
I danced with the devil on multiple occasions but I was never a fan of the music she chose,
So I two step by my lonely in present day,
I’ll..I’ll never forget all the pain the devil put me through,
The heartbreak,
The tears,
The confusion,
The masked enemies,
The manipulation,
The emotional abuse,
Everything happens for a reason,
I evolved from these dark times,
So much positivity from the negatives,
When I see a black cat…I don’t see a sign of bad luck,
I see a beautiful animal with a negative stigma behind it,
When I see a black bird…I see a bird just as beautiful as a dove..It’s just common that being darker means your showered with less love..
When I see black roses…I think of hope & rebirth,
And now before you go and grab the gavel based on what I just said,
Think about it…
Do you….find beauty in your darkness?
Or..are you just running from it?
– Kenny Rhymes
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